Regretful decisions

There are certain decisions in life that you feel it is the right thing to do and the right thing to happen. There are certain possibilities and unavoidable circumstances that makes you realize what could have been. You realize wrong decisions and try to make up for whatever there is left for you to pick up and start a new again. You start thinking, what might have been, what could I have done to avoid such decisions and etc. You started blaming others, yourself and then started to complain and give up. Makes you think of the what ifs. You start to hate yourself and give up on things. You start feeling blue and depressed on the situation. You feel left out and as if no one would be there to help you out. All is in the past now and the present is here. You might have regret somethings in your life or might have regretful decisions made; but through all this, it'll make you a better individual and a much mature person. I, for one, have blamed others for decisions I have made in the past. But through this hard times, it made me stronger and built a defense that trigger my heart to be numb from all the pain in a short time. Even if this trials have put me to the lowest point of my 23 yrs of living on earth, it will not break me. I will fight back and would never hesitate to ask for help if I need to. I have family and friends who would be there to support me all the way.

Love and everything else??

In some events that just happened in my life I can't say I'm strong but I'm trying my best to be brave not only for myself but for evryone I love. People may see me as a very jolly person but really the smile hides all the pain, insecurities and hurt that I'm feeling. People makes you happy and at the same time they hurt you til you cry a river. This year is one of my memorable year. Why is that?? Trials overcome, truth covered by lies revealed, weakness turned to bravery; all that and more makes me very proud to say I've grown and now know how to fight for my right and to give up things that are not meant for me in the meantime. I can distinguish the difference between hope and expectation, love and lust, infatuation etc etc. I know I've grown to understand the ups and downs of having a committed, NSA and Long distance relationship. When you are in a relationship you tend to overlook the side of your partner and tend to do things too much and sometimes its not enough. Suffocation, insecurities, jealousy; these are some of the reasons of breaking up for me. Girls who become more demanding, more sensitive and more clingy tends to suffocate their partners and vice versa. Guys who diss off conversation, doesn't listen, and letting their partner feel unimportant makes their partners look for another and vice versa. Now, I got a question, what's the difference between important and love? I think from my point of view, when you say you love someone that person is also important to you but when you say that a person is important to you, there's limitation to it. Maybe a person is important to you because he or she might have done something great to you or maybe he or she likes the person but don't love em. I can't explain further what I know about love etc. I'm not an expert about it who is anyway??

And then IT hit me....

Being in my adulthood, I learned to budget, save up for rainy seasons, being sooo independent, enjoying my single life doing whatchamacallit?? dating?? hanging out?? Those terms which hmmm I haven't done much before because I'm too focused on my studies. Now, I've been dating a lot and well basically enjoying my singleness and just having fun. Although I've been in like a couple of relationships in the past, I still am looking and trying to find that someone who would swept me off my feet. Someone who would treat me right and well... treat me like a princess. Someone who would say that I'm beautiful or pretty not hot, that their day seeemed as if the end of the world but just being with me makes everything ok. I may sound like I'm having my daydream or like its all just a fairytale but any lady would want someone like that in their life. Ok so here is how my blog goes: I chat when I'm bored and well try and meet people online. Its not the safest way to meet new friends right but hey! it may be worth the risks. I don't have much friends here in the Bay area so I was trying my luck online to find friends. So, I've met guys from the internet and they seemed nice and friendly. Guys that became my friends and eventually liked them but none of them turned out to be my boyfriend or so. So there I was chatting with the new chatting system from friendster because I was so bored. I chatted with few people but ended up nothing, but eventually there was this one guy who chatted with me. He was maybe bored too or had nothing to do and just chatted his way out of boredom. We chatted like everyday and talked via IM. The thing is that I don't want anything serious about it and you know like I'm not really looking for someone that time but hey! I'm not closing my doors to possibilities. I heard him sing and played the guitar and I was struck by that. I told him I wanted to learn how to play it and he said he'll teach me. We met and we'll the rest is not yet history ahahhaha... My dilemma now is that I am falling for the guy and its not intentional... it just happened.. but I don't know where I stand? I don't know what relationship we have right now.. so my question is where do you draw the line? I mean with being friends and more than that... How will you know?? How will you be able to say that you are not infatuated and that you are really in love?? Will he reciprocate?? Will he ever notice?? If he does, will he do something about it?? or just...... go away like everyone else??? :(

All I Ever Really Needed To Know I Learned In Kindergarten

All I Ever Really Needed To Know I Learned In Kindergarten
By: Robert Fulghum

MOST OF WHAT I really need to know about how to live, and what to do, and how to be, I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate school mountain, but there in the sandbox at the nursery school.

These are the things I learned: Share everything. Play fair. Don't hit people. Put things back where you found them. Clean up your own mess. Don't take things that aren't yours. Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody. Wash your hands before you eat. Flush. Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you. Live a balanced life. Learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work everyday some.

Take a nap every afternoon. When you go out into the world, watch for traffic, hold hands and stick together. Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the plastic cup. The roots go down and the plants go up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that.

Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the plastic cup-they all die. So do we.

And then remember the book about Dick and Jane and the first word you learned, the biggest word of all: LOOK. Everything you need to know is in there somewhere. The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation. Ecology and politics and sane living.

Think of what a better world it would be if we all-the whole world-had cookies and milk about 3 o'clock every afternoon and then lay down with our blankets for a nap. Or if we had a basic policy in our nation and other nations to always put things back where we found them and cleaned up our own messes. And it is still true, no matter how old you are, when you go out into the world, it is best to HOLD HANDS and STICK TOGETHER.

Email from a friend

SOMETHING TO PONDER ON:

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And
your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't Love, it's Like.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them,
am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't Love, it's Luck.

Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.

Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.

Do you stay for their confessions of Love,
because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held
your hand?
It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes
your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care
about them?
It isn't Love, it's Friendship.

Do you tell them every day they are the only one
you think of?
It isn't Love, it's a Lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite
things for their sake?
It isn't Love, it's Charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them
faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.

Do you accept their faults because they're a
part of who they are?
Then it's Love.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're
strong?
Then it's Love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch
your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.

But do you stay because a blinding,
incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls
you close and holds you?
Then it's Love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your
death?
Then it's Love.

Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
Because it's...
Love

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my friend email me this one... haaaayyy... love... so... f***ing true.. shet! why do i keep on posting things about it anyway?? grrrr...

From a friend to a friend "Being Twenty Something"

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you
stop going along with the crowd and
start realizing
that there are many things about
yourself that you
didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder
where you will
be in a year or two, but then get
scared because you
barely know where you are now. You
start realizing
that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so
close to aren't
exactly the greatest people you have
ever met, and the
people you have lost touch with are
some of the most
important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they
are realizing
that too, and aren't really cold,
catty, mean or
insincere, but that they are as
confused as you. You
look at your job... and it is not even
close to what
you thought you would be doing, or
maybe you are
looking for a job and realizing that
you are going to
have to start at the bottom and that
scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You
see what
others are doing and find yourself
judging more than
usual because suddenly you realize that
you have
certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly
adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and
what isn't. One minute, you are
insecure and then the
next, secure. You laugh and cry with
the greatest
force of your life. You feel alone and
scared and
confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy and you
try and cling on
to the past with dear life, but soon
realize that the
past is drifting further and further
away, and there
is nothing to do but stay where you are
or move
forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder
how someone you
loved could do such damage to you. Or
you lie in bed
and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough
that you want to get to know better. Or
maybe you love
someone but love someone else too and
cannot figure
out why you are doing this because you
know that you
aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups
start to look
cheap. Getting wasted and acting like
an idiot starts
to look pathetic. You go through the
same emotions and
questions over and over, and talk with
your friends
about the same topics because you
cannot seem to make
a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the
future and making a
life for yourself... and while winning
the race would
be great, right now you'd just like to
be a contender!

What you may not realize is that
everyone reading this
relates to it. We are in our best of
times and our
worst of times, trying as hard as we
can to figure
this whole thing out.

New year's resolution

In my journey to independence, last year made a BIG change in my life. I learned a lot of things. I learned to live on my own. I learned to save money and earn it. I learned to depend on myself and how to live life with other people who you barely know. I learned to cope up with the REALITIES of the world. Is it better to know the REAL world from the fancy little world you have for yourself?? The little world where you only have the power to do whatever you want. Ive been really thinking about things I have in my life right now. Its funny because now that I am away from my family I realize that (this is really true) you only realize your love and care for people when they are gone or away from you. You appreciate every little talks you would have and every little moment you could spend with them just to show them how you feel. Why am I saying this when my topic is New year's resolution?? Well, its part of my resolution. I will not waste time and I will show my love for the important people in my life. I will be a much better person spiritually, mentally, emotionally, etc etc. I will be organize with my work and everything else and be more patient. Make better or even the best decisions I could make in my life.
And I really am going to try to be a much BETTER PERSON I CAN BE. I know that resolutions are hard to do but what will you lose in doing it?? Nothing right?? So I am not promising rather I am going to try and do it. Its a process you will learn to do and its a part of life. Well, changing is a part of life. When there is change its permanent right?? Oh and one more thing I will live my single life full of love, hope, fun, happiness and eveything ahahahhaa... Enjoy life while you still have the time to do so and enjoy it with people who loves you and you love. I did make sense right?? hehehe.. well, just want to right about my new year's resolution and that is TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!!

When boys become girls' bestfriends

When boys become girls' bestfriends
By Pamela Angela Salomon Pastor
Inquirer News Service

CONTRARY to the popular belief that men cannot have purely platonic
relationships with women, today more and more females have found best
friends in their male counterparts.

We all know that women outnumber men. So why can't women stick to
tradition and just giggle with their girlfriends? Let me tell you why:

While most guys are terrible at being good boyfriends, they can
actually be great friends. Without the stress of jealousy,
commitment, looming anniversaries and other dates that should-never-
be-not-even-once forgotten, women and men can have pretty good
relationships.

They're not afraid to get their hands dirty. While most women squeal
when being splattered with mud, men like rolling in it. They don't
worry about ruining their manicure or getting dabbed with spaghetti
sauce on their shirt. They're more relaxed, less conscious.That makes
them more fun.

They don't spend too much time going on bathroom breaks.

They don't constantly complain that they're getting fat.

They think like guys. How else will you be able to dissect the head
of that guy you've been drooling for without your male best friend's
analysis of the situation? How will you snag Mr. Perfect without his
guidance? Your male best friend knows what and how guys think. He is
one.

They give great advice. While women tend to be more flowery with
words, men tell it as it is (unless of course, they are in the middle
of courtship or are trying to sweet talk girls into something). They
jolt you back to reality.

You feel protected. Now I do not mean that women are weak, weak
creatures. I am a feminist myself. But it's nice to know that if
someone starts beating you up, your male best friend will be there to
help you cream them.

They act like b ig brothers. They warn you about no-good idiots who
are after you. But of course, they're actually all big babies, which
brings us to the next reason: You can mother them. Let's face it.
Men - whether they're 16 or 60 - are kids. It's a given fact.

They don't fall in love with guys. How many friendships have been
ruined because of pals going after the same guy? Countless. This will
never happen between you and your male best friend to each his own.

They're not afraid of calories. For most girls, pigging out is
unheard of. Guys live for buffets and enjoy food more. That makes
them great companions for eating out.

They don't like boybands. (Most of them, anyway.)(HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!)

They're sweet.

They don't shriek or scream.

You can be yourself. Forget about crossing your legs and dabbing at
your little mouth with a napkin. You can relax and chill and do
whatever you want. You can be a guy with them.

They don't get PMS (pre-menstrual syndrome) ever.

They don't talk about getting married at least, not to you.

They're not too clingy.

They won't get mad when your phone is busy. Then again, in this day
and age when almost everyone has call-waiting, who does?

They share your love for computers and passion for the Internet.

You can talk about the NBA and not just about how cute the
players are.

They don't easily freak out. They can handle gory and morbid
stuff. They don't get terrified.

Their parents are not strict with them. Unlike most girls, they
don't have curfews and can do what they want when they want to.
That means more time for you to hang out.

But, of course, like everything else in this world, having boy
buds also has its downside. Here are a few: Their girlfriends get
jealous of you. Admit it, sometimes us girls can be pretty
unreasonable. Some females would not be 100% comfortable with the
ide a that you are hanging out with her guy a lot.

They forget you're a girl. They have been calling you "dude" for
such a long time that they have forgotten your gender. This is
why you hear your guy friend say, "Whoa!" when he sees you all
dressed and made up. This is why they think its okay to salivate
over other girls and comment on their bodies when you're around.

This is the reason they tell disgusting jokes and expect you to laugh
with them. Don't expect them to open doors for you and yes, don't
expect them to carry your things. And unless you start wearing skirts
to show off your legs, it will probably take a bump on their heads to
remember you're a girl. (annie? hehehe)

They can be pretty obnoxious. They can rattle off endless curse words
for minutes. They can tell sexist jokes and can be pretty sarcastic
at times. But once you sharpen your tongue and prepare your own
vocabulary of insults, you may just beat them at their o wn game.

Sometimes, they can take you for granted. You have been with them so
long that they expect you to hang around forever. If they blow off
your plans because they suddenly got a date with some hot chick, they
expect you to grin and bear it. If they ask you to befriend this girl
they have got the hots for so they can get on her good side, they
expect you to do it for them, even if you hate her guts. Lets face
it. Most men really need a dose of sensitivity.

You may end up as a girlfriend substitute. This happens a lot,
especially with males who are afraid of commitment. You end up going
to his prom or to his all-important office function as his date. He
introduces you to his parents just to stop them from asking about his
almost non-existent dating status. He finds security in your
friendship and seeks comfort in your companionship. You become his
ultimate excuse for not going out with other women.

You have to endure their burping contests. And when you tell them to
say, "Excuse me," you get chided for being too prude. They may scare
away boys that you like. Having other boys around you all the time
may cause a hottie to think twice about asking you out especially if
he's the type that scares easily. One, he may think that any of the
guys are more than just a friend. Two, even if they are just your
friends, he probably knows that if he screws up and hurts you, he's
going to be in trouble. Then again, why should this bother you? If
the potential boyfriend cannot even stand up and face your friends,
how can you expect him to be strong when it is needed?

Your boyfriend can get jealous of them. In the same way that their
girls do not appreciate your presence, your guy might not like the
idea of you hanging out with your close male buds. The male ego is a
very, very sensitive thing, more so if the owner dotes on it. As bad
as this sounds, sometimes, it boils down to a difficult choice by our
boyfriend or your boy-friends?

They can dump you when their girlfriends get too jealous. Since you
are expected to always be the perfect and understanding friend, they
don think you're going to mind if they stop hanging out with
you. "She doesn't understand why we have to go out and watch movies
when I can do it with her." But you've got to understand the guy.
He's probably pretty sick of hearing her whine, "Why is she texting
you again? Doesn't she have any other friends?" and "What! You're
going out again? But you just went out with her last week!" And just
in case that particular relationships ends, they expect to be able to
pick up from where they left and resume the friendship like nothing
happened. Yes, friends make sacrifices, even hard ones.

They can fall in love with you. If I get a peso for every single time
this has happened in history, I can probably buy that Ford F150 now.
Unl ess you feel the same way about your guy friend and you want the
friendship to become more than just that, the situation may not be
pretty. Either you forget about it and laugh about it when you get
older or your friendship goes ka-put. Definitely not a good way to
end things.

And lastly, there's always that bit of possibility... You might end
up falling in love with them. =)(??????)

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got this from my email. My friend emailed this couple of years ago and I read it. It is so true... I just think that every girl who is always thought as "one of the boys" can relate to this and the other girls as well who are basically just the "BEST FRIEND" of a guy. read it!