Sunday, February 24, 2008

And then IT hit me....

Being in my adulthood, I learned to budget, save up for rainy seasons, being sooo independent, enjoying my single life doing whatchamacallit?? dating?? hanging out?? Those terms which hmmm I haven't done much before because I'm too focused on my studies. Now, I've been dating a lot and well basically enjoying my singleness and just having fun. Although I've been in like a couple of relationships in the past, I still am looking and trying to find that someone who would swept me off my feet. Someone who would treat me right and well... treat me like a princess. Someone who would say that I'm beautiful or pretty not hot, that their day seeemed as if the end of the world but just being with me makes everything ok. I may sound like I'm having my daydream or like its all just a fairytale but any lady would want someone like that in their life. Ok so here is how my blog goes: I chat when I'm bored and well try and meet people online. Its not the safest way to meet new friends right but hey! it may be worth the risks. I don't have much friends here in the Bay area so I was trying my luck online to find friends. So, I've met guys from the internet and they seemed nice and friendly. Guys that became my friends and eventually liked them but none of them turned out to be my boyfriend or so. So there I was chatting with the new chatting system from friendster because I was so bored. I chatted with few people but ended up nothing, but eventually there was this one guy who chatted with me. He was maybe bored too or had nothing to do and just chatted his way out of boredom. We chatted like everyday and talked via IM. The thing is that I don't want anything serious about it and you know like I'm not really looking for someone that time but hey! I'm not closing my doors to possibilities. I heard him sing and played the guitar and I was struck by that. I told him I wanted to learn how to play it and he said he'll teach me. We met and we'll the rest is not yet history ahahhaha... My dilemma now is that I am falling for the guy and its not intentional... it just happened.. but I don't know where I stand? I don't know what relationship we have right now.. so my question is where do you draw the line? I mean with being friends and more than that... How will you know?? How will you be able to say that you are not infatuated and that you are really in love?? Will he reciprocate?? Will he ever notice?? If he does, will he do something about it?? or just...... go away like everyone else??? :(

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