Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Too many sad sappy songs...

I've been inclined in listening to some sad and sappy songs. Love songs you might say. Songs that more of like for broken hearted people. I kinda feel like listening to it. I feel like, in my case, I could really relate to it. Especially to the songs: If I fall by Aqualung and Colors by Amos Lee. Sad but really hits me hard. The more days that pass I feel like the more pain I'm gaining here in my heart. I've been meaning to tell the guy I've fallen in love with that I love him but it seems that no matter how brave I am in other things I'm such a coward when it comes to love. How can you tell someone you like/love them without losing them? Funny question right? There's always two answers right? Well, How will you tell that person?? What are your consequences?? Of course the two answers are him/her also in love with you or NOT. Having the idea of it makes me really sick. Having thoughts of losing that one person whom you learn to laugh with, goof around and love. Reality bites. You win some you lose some. If you try to analyze it, you would conclude two things: he/she will start to ignore you and take you for granted or will reciprocate the same thing. It should be a two way street but that's not what the world (most of the time) shows. Most of the time its only one way. You love the person and that person love another and the other loves another one and the list goes on and on. But really you don't have to analyze things coz I think you just have to do what you think is right. Tell that person you love them and just be ready for the answer! Whether its a good or bad news.. doesn't matter! Keep on loving them even if they don't reciprocate. I may sound a bit out of this world right now and I know I don't really make any sense.. Well it is because of my irritating headache and a tiring day from work.. Oh wait! I'm just making excuses.. The truth is I'm confused and scared coz... I'm in love.. with him.. =)

Monday, October 8, 2007

confusion

Confusion is starting to kill me
Slowly its breaking me
Feeling unhappy or just complaining

I'm broken
crushed into pieces
NO one could save me
I can only redeem myself

Misery or Happiness
Am I really happy?
Or just pretending?

Chances makes you decide
Fate makes you think
Hope makes you wait
Love makes you trust

Until the time I can really say I'm happy..
I just need to have a little faith and wait..
Patience is a virtue..