And then IT hit me....

Being in my adulthood, I learned to budget, save up for rainy seasons, being sooo independent, enjoying my single life doing whatchamacallit?? dating?? hanging out?? Those terms which hmmm I haven't done much before because I'm too focused on my studies. Now, I've been dating a lot and well basically enjoying my singleness and just having fun. Although I've been in like a couple of relationships in the past, I still am looking and trying to find that someone who would swept me off my feet. Someone who would treat me right and well... treat me like a princess. Someone who would say that I'm beautiful or pretty not hot, that their day seeemed as if the end of the world but just being with me makes everything ok. I may sound like I'm having my daydream or like its all just a fairytale but any lady would want someone like that in their life. Ok so here is how my blog goes: I chat when I'm bored and well try and meet people online. Its not the safest way to meet new friends right but hey! it may be worth the risks. I don't have much friends here in the Bay area so I was trying my luck online to find friends. So, I've met guys from the internet and they seemed nice and friendly. Guys that became my friends and eventually liked them but none of them turned out to be my boyfriend or so. So there I was chatting with the new chatting system from friendster because I was so bored. I chatted with few people but ended up nothing, but eventually there was this one guy who chatted with me. He was maybe bored too or had nothing to do and just chatted his way out of boredom. We chatted like everyday and talked via IM. The thing is that I don't want anything serious about it and you know like I'm not really looking for someone that time but hey! I'm not closing my doors to possibilities. I heard him sing and played the guitar and I was struck by that. I told him I wanted to learn how to play it and he said he'll teach me. We met and we'll the rest is not yet history ahahhaha... My dilemma now is that I am falling for the guy and its not intentional... it just happened.. but I don't know where I stand? I don't know what relationship we have right now.. so my question is where do you draw the line? I mean with being friends and more than that... How will you know?? How will you be able to say that you are not infatuated and that you are really in love?? Will he reciprocate?? Will he ever notice?? If he does, will he do something about it?? or just...... go away like everyone else??? :(

All I Ever Really Needed To Know I Learned In Kindergarten

All I Ever Really Needed To Know I Learned In Kindergarten
By: Robert Fulghum

MOST OF WHAT I really need to know about how to live, and what to do, and how to be, I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate school mountain, but there in the sandbox at the nursery school.

These are the things I learned: Share everything. Play fair. Don't hit people. Put things back where you found them. Clean up your own mess. Don't take things that aren't yours. Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody. Wash your hands before you eat. Flush. Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you. Live a balanced life. Learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work everyday some.

Take a nap every afternoon. When you go out into the world, watch for traffic, hold hands and stick together. Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the plastic cup. The roots go down and the plants go up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that.

Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the plastic cup-they all die. So do we.

And then remember the book about Dick and Jane and the first word you learned, the biggest word of all: LOOK. Everything you need to know is in there somewhere. The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation. Ecology and politics and sane living.

Think of what a better world it would be if we all-the whole world-had cookies and milk about 3 o'clock every afternoon and then lay down with our blankets for a nap. Or if we had a basic policy in our nation and other nations to always put things back where we found them and cleaned up our own messes. And it is still true, no matter how old you are, when you go out into the world, it is best to HOLD HANDS and STICK TOGETHER.